Portent

A feeling of danger settles

over the soul

a portent

of threat

to friend by foe.

Foe

may be unknown

but

the danger is real.

I rarely feel the threat to my person.

I feel it upon the people I love.

And it frightens me...

Where

does it come from?

This change in my air?

The internal alarms are at full decibel

clanging incessantly

as I wish

my loved ones close and safe.

I fear no one

acts

or reacts

to cause you

harm.

Where does it come from

this illogical reasoning?

Does it poison me or protect me?

Why does my internal self

percept

a season of menace?

I am vigilant.

Ever

 watching and aware.

You,

under my wing.

ramblings of the mental mind (vi)

it is all about silly me for thinking it is all about me for a stream of consciousness that comes out for life to be about them and about me and about him and about her and mine and your experiences of self and selfish singular inwardly focusing points of view with external influences also equal and relevant to experience mine and theirs we find ourselves first but must find all too together

ramblings of the mental mind (v)

i chose not to be lonely as easy that would be to be alone without a friend is not in the cards for me to not be a companion and a friend an unthinkable thought less would i think me be to not share as hard as this would and could and will be the growth of friendship outweighs the hurt with honesty companionship will grow and who knows it may be deemed partnership will find me worthy with fondness and friendship and companionship and love all to share and sow

ramblings of the mental mind (iv)

misunderstanding the misunderstood seems a mark in life I continue to enact and act upon with intentions misunderstood I care continuing to tackle the frustrations of emotions head on wishing for emoticon signals to designate a touch a feeling from people I love so I can not be misunderstood but this would be all about me when in fact I want it all about you but help is needed for me to navigate the subtleties of the human condition a part apart I seem to be

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