I've never known fear really
Oh certainly I've been afraid
Yet now suddenly there it is
Aptly described it is, a pit in the belly
That's where I am
In a pit
It started simply enough
With a rare dream and rarer still
A nightmare
A simple white square
Illuminated onto a dark wall
In a dank room
Exploding a flash and gone
Suppressed to nothing
And while I was in fear
My faculties were all with me
An acute awareness of my surroundings
Where everything is
In my enforced and unwelcome blindness
It follows me you know
This pit hangs there
Sending waves of anxiety
An embarrassment that I will be noticed
A fraud walking among us
He lacks confidence
He must be extricated from the herd
A cull eminence in constant attention
Where indeed can I be
He seeks
I shall shout here
One day
A brave force against timid survival
But now I am in this pit
Hidden
Clawing the walls down about my feet
Filling this hole whole
Rising grain by gain from an abyss
To be seen again
