Poised

In quiet contemplation I sit at this spot

Only a scant two years I sat also in this very spot

In silent wonder in the dark of my new space

Overlooking the cold winter skeletons

The trees across the river

Wondering the place fate has taken me

And wondering where it would take me next

I gave myself anew that cold lonely night

Poised to try all I could and whither it takes me

To where ever destiny would wander me next

Yes I have been in love and found love

And yes love rejected me in all its forms

Or rather perhaps I frightened it off

Being the difficult friend and village idiot

These qualities forever to barrier my trials

I left open all doors in folly hopes

I stare at wisps of steam and gassy smoke

Signals of residents warm in their places

And families in joy and laughter so I imagine

Lo I could find the one to build this life

Imagined and real perhaps or illusion

Then she comes once and twice

A perfect woman frustrating and aware

Right there for me to share should we win

Heart for heart we part and part

Leaving doors open to find our ways home

You are real I say not knowing how I know

You are real a surprise to have met and found

And we turn apart to return a part

Of a whole found and renewed

A fork in this road is reached

We must decide

I love you

Pact poised to real future

You are real

As am I