January 21, 2012

From a Crowded Room


Standing from the corner
Looking out from a cocoon
My own making
A fear of all of you
Misdiagnosis
My prognosis?
Step forth
Get on board


January 16, 2012

Are You There


I lay here in silent fear
You are not there
As you are not
I hold your memory close
Staring to this space
Cold and empty
And I remember
When you can’t stop thinking of someone
When you remember their touch
When you remember their scent
When you remember their taste
And can feel their breath
And hear their voice
How they hold you and touch you
When they are not around
This is truly the deep
Presence and truth
Turning cold to warmth
I reach out
And touch you

January 15, 2012

In Response Ability


To know what I will never know
What a question
Irresponsibility abounds
In the minds of others
Not in the know I know this always
To learn is the pinnacle
And there are no shortcuts
No matter what the track states
I am not easy deary
I can easily cause the teary
And feel nothing as a result
Other than the clue
I did wrong by you
And I know remorse
For what I don’t know
So that is feeling is it not?
I know nothing of myself
That is nothing but mechanics
Of hoses and joints and machines and wires
To drive the unique me forward
Yet there it dwells
That infernal inkling
Touching close
Causal connections
A dose of normalcy
From the world reactionary
Right there
Out of reach
On the other side of this mirror

With Apologies That Is the Question


Give me a bone here
I deserve so much more
Than you can ostensibly give
Living me in the lurch
You are such a jerk
Yet I love you so, why?
You will never know who you are
But will always know what you are
Can you see how that can get to me
You go through all the right motions
From time to time
You even go through all the right emotions
From time to time
And then you disappear
Where do you actually go
Is it me, why do I think it is me
I bare myself to you
You can only be bare to me
Exposed and hidden
Indisposed
Where are you and why
What are you and why
You can be loved
Yet me frustrated cannot be loved the same
And yet you can love
It is all so unfair
The toll such a great fare
Is the price worth it
You cannot say can you
Only I can
On the spot out out foul spot
Not fair to you
Not fair to me
Knowing me knowing you
Is it worth it
Can I live with it


I have missed you!