Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.

Kahlil Gibran

Alienator

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The Ten Unwritten Rules of Social Relationships

from Unwritten Rules of Social Relationships, Dr. Temple Grandin & Sean Barron (2005)

Rule #1            Rules are not absolute.  They are situation-based and people-based.

Rule #2            Not everything is equally important in the grand scheme of things.

Rule #3            Everyone in the world makes mistakes.  It doesn’t have to ruin your day.

Rule #4            Honesty is different than diplomacy.

Rule #5            Being polite is appropriate in any situation.

Rule #6            Not everyone who is nice to me is my friend.

Rule #7            People act differently in public than they do in private.

Rule #8            Know when you are turning people off.

Rule #9            “Fitting In” is often tied to looking and sounding like you fit in.

Rule #10          People are responsible for their own behaviors.            

ramblings of the mental mind (ii)

so blather and blither and blither and blather allowing the years of pent up inflection to turn itself into unconstrained reflection playing hide and now seek ready or not here I come from my shell into this cruel world to discover my welcome unwelcome in sides they are churning I cannot do right I have so much new learning the label wants comeback the headaches unbearable emotes my new wealth doth say it is manageable so long as you stay the course and do sing the praises to those whose lives you wish bring much happiness and comfort and joy and fair share on equal foot basis continue soul bare so do so I dare

Rumpus Désordre

Patrick was drunk, a thing he rarely did.  He had been having such a good time.  The girl he had been chatting all night wanted to go back to his room with him but he was a gentleman and instead he offered to drive her home.  He knew he shouldn’t have been out driving but he felt duty bound.  And he made it to her home and back to his hotel without incident, meaning he wasn’t pulled over nor did he get in an accident.  Stupid he knew.

Patrick stumbled to his room, fumbled the lock open, noted how warm the room felt, removed his clothing, and fell into bed naked, exhausted, happy, and proud of himself.  His had been a good week so far and he was pleased.  Just a couple more days, a few more clients, and home.  He fell into a deep relaxed sleep.

Now as is apt to happen to a drunk man Patrick’s bladder decided it could no longer contain the fluids of last evening and it woke him a couple hours into his slumber.  Patrick, still inebriated took a few moments to orient.  His eyes focused, he was aware of his bladder calling to him.  And he did not feel particularly bright.  As he took stock of each of his body functions and sensations he was horrified at one.

Beneath his bum was a warm and pasty mess.  Could he… nah he couldn’t have.  In his sleep?  Patrick was embarrassed.  Tentatively he reached down and touched that which he feared he had done.  He stared at his fingers.  And his sight confirmed that which he feared.  One more test, the olfactory test, was all he needed for his final confirmation.  “Me shite smells like mint”, he thought to himself. 

He jumped from the bed, embarrassed and ashamed.  He stared with horror at the mess he had made.  There in the middle of the bed, just above the fold in the drawn sheets, a pasty chocolate brown mess, that smelled of mint.  In the middle of the mess a cheerful little note: “Our Guests are Worth a Mint”.

Pusillanimous

Pick me, oh pick me

Or don’t

I’m never really sure

The pride of choice

Or the loath of chosen

Oft chosen the admiration

Of the girls front of line

Then the shy boys middle

Given to derision of the angry

And the bullies.

Doyle a plexis punch

Armstrong a testicular kick

Doubled over the door closes upon the line

Doubled over time and again

The last but am chosen

ramblings of the mental mind (i)

embracing is not possessive though possession can seem engrossing to those who freedom is illusory where allegory demotes or is it denotes embarrassment of misunderstanding in receiver furthering the miscalculation returned to dispatcher spiraling uncontrollably to furtive frustration and words they be misspoken opening delayed reaction offending one or both or all reducing chance of embracing exponentially till breaking before braking is become the necessity