ramblings of the mental mind (v)

i chose not to be lonely as easy that would be to be alone without a friend is not in the cards for me to not be a companion and a friend an unthinkable thought less would i think me be to not share as hard as this would and could and will be the growth of friendship outweighs the hurt with honesty companionship will grow and who knows it may be deemed partnership will find me worthy with fondness and friendship and companionship and love all to share and sow

ramblings of the mental mind (iv)

misunderstanding the misunderstood seems a mark in life I continue to enact and act upon with intentions misunderstood I care continuing to tackle the frustrations of emotions head on wishing for emoticon signals to designate a touch a feeling from people I love so I can not be misunderstood but this would be all about me when in fact I want it all about you but help is needed for me to navigate the subtleties of the human condition a part apart I seem to be

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Woody Allen's Concept of Reincarnation

Woody Allen 

"In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people's home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!"
— Woody Allen

From: http://grou.ps/meditationtime/blogs/item/woody-allen-concept-of-reincarnation

Soar

For a moment she soars

Standing upon the seat

Face into the wind

Free as a bird

She soars

He sits

Face happy

Alternating up

And forward steering

Grounded to the earth

Admiring her care free

Flood

Thirty-six years

Pent up pain joy tears

Building growing swelling

From mute to attentive revealing

You changed before me my flesh my blood

You changed from girl to woman born in blood

Your reveal my awareness coming out

The man I was long lost my doubt

Suddenly become a father anew

Your change signals my renew

Saline flood swells my tears

Emotions break levy years

Thank God for you my dear

Thank God for this simple tear

My Day

My time seems spent in an endless series of naps interrupted by necessities of life and requisites of career and noblise oblige.  I have been so exhausted trying to please and meet the obligation of another while craving the return of favour and understanding and life.  My Day has come, my dignity regained.  Battered and bruised but not beaten I thrust forth, excited for the new adventures and a journey retaken.  Necessities of life and obligations continue on my terms now.  I have learned and I will live.

threat

save all who betray in vindication to lose ones friends to truth believed by one their own truth believed but not the truth of another who is threatened by the belief of the former to hurt the other and another to effect a change for their advantage or vindication on belief spurned by misunderstanding to lose trust of friendship by mistrust mistaken is not forgiven